update

I got a job offer today..GREAT News huh..but i wont get paid for about 3 weeks.... sooooooo now im struggling trying to figure out how i am going to stay in my place.. so any help and all help from you all can definitely save me!

webpage

Getting my webpage together to assist me while i am doing the "revealed" poison Ivy time. www.wix.com/poisonlvy/poisonivy

updated as of april 15th 2010

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the VLOG

the video..
me at my worst.. sorry for my look

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I have been trying so hard to find work..with very little people helping me..my family is no family.. and i have or had a few friends that helped me in the time of need..right now this is my biggest time of need.. I will try to keep a smile on my face..but i just left my moms me and my brother got into it bad and it nearly got physcial and i just cant do that anymore, ive been down that road so with the help of a friend that donated to me on mygirlfund.com i was able to get a room for a week. i just need to be able to keep it for a while. its 289 a week..fully furnished and i dont pay any other bills everything is paid entirely I would love to keep it but i may need help. I thought i should start doing cam things..but i do need the help. does anyone have any thoughts or ideas how i can go about getting this done? anyways.. i posted a vlog.. i look terrible because it was the same day i had to leave... i will try to keep those that care posted. and i hope i can do this..

I will post the video shortly

look into the stars

Okay here is a link to the photographer that is suppose to take my photos tomorrow.. these are a link to his studio shots.. the shoot im doing is in studio.. I just hope i do good so he wants to use me more.

http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=390048743&albumId=28955

its a myspace link.

But what I wanted to blog a little about is astrology... WELL I am not super big with astrology and zodiac signs but i find it extremely interesting and fascinating... I may end up being a hard core believe of the stars. I read that my most compatible signs are Aquarius, Gemini and Libras.. i haven't connected with many Aquarians ( i myself am an Aquarians) I connect with them but on a more friendly level.. I haven't met many Geminis and if i have i didst know so i don't know how i connect with them..and i love Libras! they are great people so far. but I have noticed I do like cancers I have met a few and those i meet I like alot.. like i could see myself with them..but i think according to the stars cancers aren't a good match with me.. also Sagittarius.. well i seem to pull those signs in..but im afraid to love a sag because my ex was one.. one sign i think i know i dont get along with usually are Taurus and Scorpios... As for Taurus my dad and brother are both bulls and we bump heads terribly bad.. I love my dad dearly but OMG..I am usually good friends with Aries but nothing more. and as for Capricorns, pieces, Virgos... i just dont know yet.. WHats your zodiac sign?

I will blog more about this topic...
My life has been so busy lately with my situation i dont have alot of just chill relax time..if my body isnt moving constantly then my brain is.. i get online at the end of the night and pass out..

the shoot, the hair and me

Well I had an interview Monday March 8th for visual merchandising with a pretty cool company that I am suppose to call friday for a second interview.. ( wish me luck) then I went to another interview tuesday for a high end bar wish me luck with that as well.

Also I have my first EVER REAL photo shoot, meaning to me it would actually be someone else taking photos of me with lighting and back drops or whatever they use.. He asked me to bring 6 outfits.. ( ugh only because I dont have alot of my clothes so Ill have to figure out something) but I dont have to pay him for these shots.. If you want to see his work , contact me and ill show you. I kinda need ideas of what type of photos I want. ( non nude)!!!

oh and yes some of you may have see my with the Hair cut..well i havent grown attach to it so its gone.. for the longest I have been wanting to go RED and i am sorta red now and i ADDED hair.. so its back to a longer length.. I dont know i liked the short hair but maybe ill feel better with wearing that when im a bit thinner. so look out for me to see my new hair look.

I am so excited about my photo shoot and again wish me luck on my job hunting.

HUGS

2-25-2010

Here we go:

The Sitch:
I havent spoken to "HIM" in a while, last time I had he was telling me he is Broke and needs to sell the rims from the car and the workout equipment to pay the car note and to see if he can give me money for the kids.. I guess well see about that.

The JOB HUNT:
no luck has been coming my way, been to many places, sent out to many online emails for jobs.. just nothing yet.. ugh

The LOOK:
I dont know where all my clothes been? YOu know since im with my mom now i think she took them and hid them but im lacking clothes for job hunting.. and Oh yea some of you may have seen me when i had hair that was curly wavy ( the natural) well ive been going straight lately and its time consuming so i am going back to the curly wavys for a while.. Also Ive gained freaking 4 lbs!! I need a personal Trainer!!

Friends:
Thanks so much to a friend of mine ill call him D he has helped me thru this when i dont like to truly ask for it but i truly do need it he always seems to help so thanks so much. Also to C he always offers and has helped times before so thanks, and L always offers.. i hope i didnt forget anyone. oh and M or J thanks for helping me with my resume :) HONESTLY if it wasnt for the friends that do help me out i probably would have been crazy by now i truly thank you soooooooo very much.. you are helping me through this hard time.

and today is my moms bday, so happy birthday MOM...

The Job HUNT

So the latest with me.. lets see

First I needed daycare assistance to help me when I am job hunting or even when I get a job. So I applied for that and they offered me 2 weeks of day care assistance for job seeking. I had day care assistance before a few years back and its very helpful. But this time around they are only assisting me with 95% of the expenses, and dont get me wrong Thats amazing but last time as a JOB SEEKER they usually would assume you have no INCOME (which i dont)...so I have to now PAY 5% of the daycare..its not a bad amount but regardless of me saying that I still have no income!... but Thanks to a Friend I got this week taken care of... So then comes my first day of a FULL job hunt.. because I have been hunting but it hasnt been able to be as intense as I would like. I applied to two jobs Online (both clerical jobs) and planned on hitting 3 in person ( only managed to hit two) One on the strip, which im more interesting in, and the other was Buffalo Wild Wings... Just Wish me LUCK...

an update

So Whats new with me you ask..

Well, I have my official divorce decree papers..but im still job hunting.. and doing it carless..which does suck. I have been very stressed from this... wondering how can i make money fast enough to get a car and a place of my own.. well then those things pop in my head.. Stripping = pros and cons.... Pros : I love dancing, its a good work out and there are so many close by i could walk, it can be good money but i hear thats not always the case. Cons: I am not really into grinding on random men ( webcam flirting is one thing, actually doing it on someone is another), its a industry thats always around drugs and probably violence, so its dangerous, it would cost me 200 dollars to just start dancing.. ugh!! then there is Adult films ( which i have gotten offers for) Pros and cons.... Well PROs: thats Crazy fast money, and that may be the only pro i can think of... Cons: Ill be able to be viewable by many that i may not want to see me, it will always be out there, my Va- j j might get tired of being fucked so much.. (excuse the language),.. so I dont know.. i just wish i was lucky enough to find a pretty good job, car and home.. What a blessing that would be!

OMG this totally Shocked me!

So alot have been going on with me lately. I am currently still in Vegas, at my moms home (where there i absolutely no room for us) but we are doing what we have to do to get away from the Ex..because he is known to just snap. But anyways...Today I was out and about ( with a rental car, because he took that and didnt want me to use it) and i stop in a a lawyers office to tell them my situation and try to get more knowledge about what options I have and I can do. Well as I am in there he is explaining the process, and at the end I said well ihave one more question.."me and daniel have been thru this before but we never finalized it from what we knew.. so he looks up to see what happened when we went thru court and I come to find out I am already DIVORCED FROM HIM OMG.!!! are you kidding me.., All THIS time!! we have been divorced since 2006 ( two thousand and freaking SIX) so im happy and confused at the same time..happy that i am not attached to him in that way anymore, confused on why i didnt know that, confused on what to do next, confused on wondering if this is a full benefit for me, and also upset that i was legally divorced from him and had to endure all that abusive.( well didnt have to be was afraid to leave until i had a safe plan) Well i just hope the next steps of custody and support go good..
but WOW and a big WOW

So if you know me knows the complications i was having with my H (husband) we arent doing well he is very abusive in all aspects.. and i just wanted to find a job save up money and leave..well thats not the case now..I need to get out of here and i have no where to go. EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS its so easy just leave.. but not with 3 kids.. i have no money, no car, no place and no job.. ill be homeless..so its not as easy as getting up and moving..and friends and family u might think? well I dont have anyone that can help me.. so what does a stay at home mom do then?

So, My photos and videos from photobucket have officially been hacked into, and I found where they were being posted (and hopefully thats the only places) and How I feel about this.. Im kinda having mixed feelings about it. Im upset, embarassed, sad, hurt, and regretful. I know its my fault because I posted it and hosted it. but it just sucks to happen. I am wondering if i want to post and host again.. i was thinking about NOT.. or maybe just toning everything down that i do.. im not sure.. but i just wanted to blog about this. i dont know...

So I recently took some photos. Took them in one of my tubs ( small tub) the look I was aiming for didnt come out that way out all. I would say it looks more like umm i dont know What do you think. (posted a few photos) i looked up Mimes because i figured that could be another interesting photo to try to turn sexy and when i googled Mime, their attire looked similiar to what i had one.. well then I decided to create a "silent film" and I love it, its a bit funny and cute with sexiness in it.. I cant share that on the blog spot, But i wanted to mention it.

mexican purple soda drink

A few days ago I was in A.S chat..and somehow "jizz" came up.. so I go on saying i never tasted jizz before (but im think its something else).Then I began to realize jizz isnt what I think it is.. and i reply What the Heck is Jizz?!?? come to find out its freaking cum , seaman.. omg! welp should i now answer the question if i ever tasted jizz now? lol A lady never tells or do they?!?... well you want to know what i thought jizz was?
I thought jizz was a drink.. a mexcian soda drink. But tell me, Doesnt it sound like a purple mexican soda drink? well to me it does.. and i think it might be.

but get this.. when i didnt know what jizz was (before they told me) i was thinking in my head, maybe i should go to the store and try some of this Jizz they speak of..i guess its a good thing i found out what it was before i did huh! lol

I wanted to blog about this yesterday.. It's basically.. there is someone that I truly like alot and he calls me the girl of his dreams.. and I dont know if that is honestly a good thing.. I know its not a bad thing, because who wouldnt want to be someone of someones dreams.. but it makes me feel that i will only be a fantasy and I dont want to be a fantasy to this particular person, I want it to be real. It also makes me feel that if we were to meet I would have to be like super perfect because to be of someones dreams makes me think they are perfect. I dont know.

bigger better?

So I just got in from the store ( looking at flat screen tv's) and I log onto A.S (adultspace) and I read someones blog that says he wants to try extenze and was seeking opinion from women. he is about a large 9 inches and i have to admit i seen it on cam.. and yes he was large but he wants to go for 12. I adviced him NO.. thats to big.. what can a girl do with a FOOT long cock? but then I started thinking maybe I shouldnt be telling him NO because I have implants. I was a size D before which many girls are trying to achieve that..and now im a large F.. i dont know but it seems like years to come all the girls are going to be huge boobie women and all the dudes are going to be large cock having because i see cock pill everywhere now!

tester

This is just a tester post from my phone.. now I'm going to go clean up some cake

webpages..?

1:26pm PST 1.25.10
I have been creating and deleting alot of webpages that are about me with photos and things with me on it but I havent found one that i have come to just enjoy doing or anything. so I dont know if im going do to that. I have always wanted a blog spot ad now i have one. Maybe ill just post one pic of the pic sets i have in my blog spot and if i want to share them with certain people MAYBE I will..

I just set up my blog today 1.25.10. So hopefully I keep up with it and have friends that enjoy reading. I have been told I can be quite inquisitive.

Ivy